intro by the xx

we are vicious, reckless creatures

i don’t know how
i don’t know


i feel, i feel, i feel,
i feel

you don’t feel anymore, you said
it’s been like that for weeks

the tv froze
my phone froze
and my laptop froze, all at once

everything comes
all at once

l i f e  i s  o v e r w h e l m i n g

you can sleep on my couch but you can’t hold my hand

not yet

not yet



how can an organ so small feel so much

what if some stuff doesn’t fit
where does that stuff go

does it come back when there is room

are we able to clear up space in our hearts
does it go away - or does it get bigger?

if it gets bigger - do other feelings condense so they still fit

or what
what

what happens
what happens when
you just don’t feel anything for a few minutes

like when you’re in the bath and you submerge yourself completely underwater
and you can hear your breaths so loud

loud
 
so
loud

do you stop
do you stop feeling then

or do you feel everything all at once

and that’s why
that’s why

that’s why you’re in the bath submerging yourself completely under water

i do this thing sometimes where i type or write out a few of my thoughts and see where they go for a span of one song and i’m going to start posting some from now on and they are pretty much just mind scribbles and might not (probably won’t) make sense but enjoy anyways

If you find yourself thinking ‘Wait. Can’t say that. He’ll think I’m weird and fucked up’. Ditch them and find someone who responds with something twice as weird and three times as fucked up.

Jeremiah van Guilder